I started blogging and engaging in social media several years ago. Feels like it’s been forever.
In the beginning, all the attention was like drugs for me. Every like, comment, share, reblog, and encouragement were new highs each and every time. I lived for them. I was always checking website hits, views, and any other stats available.
I was rigorously pushing my books and trying to sell as many as possible. Bombarding Twitter and Facebook with Amazon links every day.
In the middle of it all, my motives became twisted. The why behind my life was skewered horribly.
Let me backtrack a little.
First of all, I was so lost it’s ridonkulous. I was drowning in a sea of lost identity and had no clue who my Father was. My marriage was in shambles, even though most people had no idea.
A porn addiction of 33 years destroyed all trust, intimacy, and communication between a man and woman who lived in the same house but were utterly alone.
I was saying and posting all the right “Christian” messages, but inside I was nothing more than an empty shell. Going through the motions while being ravaged by guilt, shame, and condemnation. I knew who God was, but didn’t know Him at all.
Big difference there.
Then, God thumped my heart. I became alive and old things were wiped away. I haven’t lived in any shame, guilt, or condemnation since that day. It has been incredible.
I’m growing more in Him each and every minute of my life.
I started this new blog because I wanted to get rid of the old. My old website was more about me and “look what I wrote” and check me out kind of thing. This one is more about How amazing Father God is and how He’s changing my life.
I also started a new Facebook profile. I had over 1,400 friends on my list last I checked, I believe 1,800 at one point, and I didn’t know half of them.
I would accept any requests just because it was fresh blood I could pitch my website and book links too. My motive wasn’t to reach people with the Gospel. It was to further my status as a writer.
I’m not saying there is anything wrong with authors pitching their work on social media. It’s just not for me anymore.
It feels as if a huge weight has lifted off my shoulders. Social media is great, but can also consume our lives to no end.
I’m excited in the season of new beginnings. I can’t wait to see what God has in store next.